Friday, November 26, 2004
pictures of my first few days


Jessica |1:01 PM| |

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greetings and salutations. as you can tell a lot has happened since my last entry. so shall we begin? too bad we are going to anyways. hah.

LABOR
wednesday morning i woke up around 9am with really bad contractions. they were about a minute long and happening like clockwork every 5 minutes or so. it was soooooooo uncomfortable. but i just kept it to myself. i started to keep track of them but just stayed in my room and beared with them. so then jer comes over like he normally does around 115pm. and i tell him about it. so he watches me as i go through this. so then around 2pm i get hungry and we work our way downstairs to get food. i stop off in my mom's room on our way and give her the list of all the contractions. she asks what is it and i tell her then i leave. she was on the phone at the same time. so we go downstairs. so i'm getting some cereal when my mom comes downstairs with the tablet. she tells my dad thats she's gonna take a shower and for my dad to call auntie ellen. my dad asks why. i'm still just getting my food. my mom says that i've been in labor since 9am. WTF?? i have? oh.. heh. oops. so my mom takes a shower. dad tries to call auntie ellen and jer and i finish eating. then we make sure i'm all packed up. poor jermiah. he didn't know what to do with himself. he was going crazy. i called krysten, the np from planned parenthood, and see what she thinks we should do cause auntie ellen hadn't answered our page. she said to go ahead and go to the hospital. they will check me out and see what needs to be done. ok by me. so we start calling some ppl and give them a heads up. so then jer goes home. i get into the beemer and go with dad to the hospital and mom and jac and jay are to follow shortly after. so dad and i get to the hospital and head upstairs. as we are walking towards the maternity ward dad's phone rings. its mom. jac got a flat on the way there. hah. luckily jay was with them to change the tire. so i sign papers and get put in an exam room. they check me out and i'm still only dialated to 1cm. sheesh. but i am having labor pains/contractions. they keep me monitored for a couple of hours. mom, jac, jay, evil and pat arrive. they called pat and evil and told them i was at the hospital and they came to check me out. they even beat jac and them to the hospital. and they were called after they fixed the tire and were near the hospital. they stopped off for gas and stuff and evil and pat beat them. heh. auntie ellen was checking in on me from the time i arrived to. since nothing was happening as of yet she went home. we told her we'd call her if anything happened. the monitors that were in the exam room were being retarded so they moved me to a room that actually had the monitors working. then after a couple of hours the midwife came around and checked me out. still hadn't dialated. she could feel the baby's head but it still seemed high, like dr hannig had said last week. but its still too early to decide anything she said. and i wasn't dialate far enough to admit me. so they gave me a shot of morphin to help with the pains. ouch..why didn't anyone tell me that morphin burns when its injected. oh man. so after that mom, dad and i went to eat at olive garden. esp since i hadn't eaten anything except the cereal. i didn't eat fettucine alfredo. can you believe it? hehe. i didnt want anything too heavy cause i was getting drowsy from the morphin and tired just from everything that had happened. so i ordered the stuffed chicken marsala. it was good. so then we came home. oh man..i had an exorcist episode. all of sudden i felt like i had to throw up. then i kinda did in my mouth..as i headed to the bathroom i just shot it all out. i had projectile and everything. the amount of food i ate and the morphin didn't mix well. man i got it all over the bathroom and in the toilet..and i only had 4 spouts of it. my poor mom had to clean it up for me. even she made the reference to the exorcist. after awhile of relaxing and chatting i went to bed.

thursday was a little better. i was still having contractions but they weren't as close together. so obviously my labor is continuing. i had a drs appt at 1145am. so mom took me cause i was in no condition to drive. so we went. my weight stayed the same. hah. krysten checked me out and i was dialated to almost 2cm nows. good grief. i still got 8 cms to go. so she told me what to look out for. so on our way home from the drs we stopped by kfc. had a weird contraction there though. i had 1 where it only affected my back, not my front at all. but that was the only one. who knows. so we took it home and mom, jay, jer and i ate. jac came home from watching lolo but she wasn't hungry and dad came home from grandpa domil's funeral but he ate at the reception. the contractions continued. i ate dinner around 6pm. and about 830pm the contractions kinda got harder. so my mom called cheryl and let her know. cheryl was at pechanga with her family and what not. so she came down around 11pm. so cousin monitored my contractions for me, since i had been using jer and jane to tell me how long they were happening during our chat and they went to bed. so then around midnight we decided to head to the hospital. the pains were getting worse. and it was hurting my back and body. i rode with dad and mom and cousin rode in cousin's car. so dad and i went to the emergency room so we can get a wheelchair. so as dad rolled me to the 4th floor i was dying. i actually had some tears form this time. so they put me in an exam room. the nurse checked me out. the monitors were showing major contractions. they got the on call midwife to check me out. i had progressed to 2cm. almost 3 cms. she could feel the baby's head but it still was too high. so they went ahead and admitted me. man i was dying. the contractions were so hard. and it was killing my lower back like no other. so the 4 of us were in the room. i was admitted around 2am and put into the room. the next couple of hours were hell. i was hurting constantly. and it was affecting my sciatic nerve. so i was hurting not only in front, in my lower back but my right leg was tightening and cramping up too. then around 5am i started getting contractions that felt like i was being stabbed. then around 545am the nurse came in and said that i was being taken in for a c-section. that the dr decided to go ahead and go through with it. while they were prepping me they checked to see how far i was dialated and i was only at 3cm. so for 45 hrs i was in labor but only dialated to 3cm. WTF?!!?!! so then the calls started as the nurse started to get me ready for the OR. dad, mom and cousin were all on the phone. they called auntie ellen and let her know and she said she was on her way in. so the nurse finished putting in my IV. it was in my wrist. that was something i wasn't expecting. cousin let my mom go into the OR with me since i'm allowed one person in there with me. so my mom started to get ready and put on the scrubs. you could tell everyone was getting excited. i was excited but at the same time i was like..hurry up and take this kid out of me. just as they were gonna take me out towards the OR nikki showed up. so she got to see me before i delivered.

Delivery
so around 615am i'm rolled into the OR. at first i'm introduced to the nurses who will be involved with the surgery. then i meet the anestesiologist (sp?). he was amusing. so after signing my life away i'm taken into the actual room. so they get me ready for the epidural. if you dont know what exactly it is, its the anesthesia that is shot into your spine with big needles. unfortunately i'm still contracting really hard. but the nurses were cool. they helped me handle the contractions and get my back ready for the epidural even though they were happening simultaneously. unfortunately one of the shots didn't take well. so they had to give it to me again. so instead of 2 shots i had 3. ANG SAKIT!!  so then it starts kickin in. that was odd. imagine feeling your body from your chest bone downwards all go numb. you feel the pins and needles effect all through your body and arms and legs. then they put the oxygen mask on me. that was not good. i was soooo tired and whatnot and with the numbing sensation going through my body i started to get really sleepy. they had to keep telling my to open my eyes cause i kept closing them. then my mom was brought in by auntie ellen. auntie ellen got permission to come in on her day off to deliver aja. that was cool. so she was helping them prep me up and what not. then i felt the surgeon moving my body. they had told me that they were putting the iodine and what not. so the whole time i thought thats what i thought they were doing. the next thing i knew i heard her cry and them say its a girl. my mom was all "its really a girl" heh. everything happened so quickly. my mom and auntie ellen were taking pictures for me during the delivery since i'm kinda sedated and my view is blocked by a sheet that they put up. the dr called her time of birth at 6:40am. my mom said "oh she was born at 6:38am" pointing at me. the dr jokingly says "sorry i tried to hurry as fast as i could" hehe. i had a cool staff for my surgery. so then the nurses kinda cleaned up aja while the drs cleaned me up and sewed me back together..gee i feel like humpty dumpty. then they brought her over to me so i could at least see her. being that i was in surgery they had tied my arms down so i couldn't touch her. i vaguely remember looking at her. if you had asked me right after that what she looked like i wouldn't have been able to tell you. so they took my mom and aja to the nursery for all the weighing and what not. then i was taken to recovery. oh man that sucked. i'm not one for being alone, let alone with little noise around. i was the only patient in recovery for like the first hour or so. i was in the recovery for 2 hours. that was odd too. i thought i was moving my feet. like i could feel my feet move but when i looked, it wasn't moving at all. and i'm sure ya'll know how it feels when your foot starts to wake up after falling asleep. thats how i felt over my entire body. so then finally they transported me to my room. when i got to the doors to get into the pediatrics unit, there were too many births at the same time as mine that they ran out of room in the maternity ward, i saw my dad open the doors then i saw uncle mon then jermiah. then they took me into the room and got me situated. then my mom brought me aja for the first time. i was finally able to hold her almost 3 hours after her birth. auntie marie and auntie lina were there too. so of course with jermiah with my camera and uncle mon with his i had flashes going off around me from the time i was in the hallway being brought towards the room and when i got to hold her for the first time. just after they got me situated with aja armida walked into the room. on her way to work she stopped by real quick just to see us. so then armida, uncle mon, auntie marie, and auntie lina went to work. mom and dad went home to get some sleep and jermiah stayed with me and aja for a couple of hours.

the hospital stay
around 2ish cousin returned after getting some sleep after being with me during the night and the labor. she also had babysitting duty. cause i had a c-section i couldn't do much for myself. so i had to have someone with me at all time. so cousin agreed to have first duty. hehe. so she was there and jermiah left. dad also came back for awhile. later jermiah came back for a bit and april showed up. so then jer and april left. i could barely move. i had some pains but i was still under the epidural too. oh man that night was AAAUUGGGHH!!! i'm a new mom, cousin isn't a mom and we had to go through the first night with a newborn alone. it was chaos. we couldn't get aja to really sleep. she was killing my boobs when she ate cause that girl has REALLLLLLYYY good sucking reflexes. cousin was tired, i hadn't slept since wednesday night so we were both really fatigued. i kept dozing off during the feedings or just holding her. after awhile cousin took her from me cause i was getting frustrated. so cousin tried to let me sleep and only wake me up when aja needed to be feeded. but i couldn't sleep cause i was in a sitting type position. so not the fun the night.

the next day dad came early and relieved cousin. so dad stayed with me. around 8am one of the surgeons and auntie ellen came by to see me. auntie was checking in on us before she went into work. the surgeon removed my bandage on my stitches. she said it looked good. in a bit i would have the cathader (sp??) removed then i would have to get up and walk around some today. and then get real food. i hadn't eaten since thursday at 6pm. and now its saturday around 8am. then later my nurse came in and removed the cathater and gave me some apple juice to hold me over. yayee!! well lunch time came and they kinda forgot about me. so my dad went to the cafeteria and got me some meat loaf and mashed potatoes. it was good. while i was eating nikki and inang came to visit. while they were there cristen and larry came by. then cousin, corey, corey jr and cody came to visit too. so i had a full room. heh. when nikki and inang went to leave for some reason inang called aja "kristina". wth? then when i said no she called her "aja marie" again no. sheesh. so then cristen and larry left also. then jac came. she had afternoon duty with me. then cousin and the guys left. so then they brought me my dinner. guess what it was...meat loaf and mashed potatoes. hahaha. then mom came for night duty. i got to take a shower. yayee!! that felt so good. hadn't showered since thursday around 10am. but i couldn't cause of the surgery and what not. grace and rodney came by to visit too. tonight was a lot easier. esp since my mom has had 2 kids of her own. also aja was a lot calmer than last night. we did realize she loves to sleep on top of a pillow. and she really loves her pacifier that cousin got last night from the nurses. i was able to kinda sleep for the first time for a couple of hours straight.

mom was really tired. so she called dad to come and relieve her. dad arrived around 8am. i was in the middle of eating my breakfast: eggs, french toast, bagel, and rice krispies that i ended up just taking home with me. the surgeon came in again and checked me out and said that i could probably go home tomorrow. i said "tomorrow?" she asked me if i wanted to go home today and of course i said yes. so she said ok. she said i should be discharged around 11am then. yayee!!! since that was in a couple of hours my mom just stayed. my dad kept an eye on aja while my mom and i took naps. then i got up and took a shower. the pediatrician came and took a final look at aja. then we changed her into her clothes to go home. after everything was said and done and all the paperwork was done with we left the hospital around 1230pm.

the week so far....
before we went home home we stopped by lolo's so he can see her since he couldn't go the hospital. when we got there uncle rolly and mellvin were there too. so we showed lolo aja and he got all excited. he kept smiling and patting her hand. then we told him to get up so we can take a picture and he shot up so he can hold her. hah. go lolo. auntie marie and uncle mon came over to pick up inang for uncle santy's party so they were playing with aja too. so after all the pictures were taken we came home. its so nice to be home.when we got home nikki was waiting here for us.  later that night jermiah came over. then annie and cuong came to see aja for the first time. that night was hell though. i guess i moved around too much when i got home. in the middle of the night...luckily i had aja in the bed with me....but she started to cry and when i moved to tend to her my entire body tensed up. i couldn't move. so the both of us were crying and screaming. i was calling for my mom. but i had mistakenly closed my door so my screams were muffled. eventually my mom heard and came over and saw what had happened. so she took aja to calm her down while my dad helped me move and sit up. that was hell.

the next day nana and tata came over to visit. their first great-grandchild. nana is finally "big nana". so she's aja's "little big nana"hah. on tuesday teresa and clare came over to visit. unfortunately as they were leaving we all when into hectic mode. suddenly aja spit up blood. so we had to take her to the emergency room at palomar. that was freaky. but after about 5 hours of being there, it was diagnosed that she may have just swallowed my blood while in the womb and when she was ready she spit it up. its a common thing..but not that common. there are about 12 cases a year or so that they see of this happening. sheesh girl give us a heart attack. then on wednesday christa and rj came to visit too. that night was freaky too.again aja spit up blood. but it was real quick. and it was right after feeding her. so we checked me and sure enough i had blood. she sucked me so hard that she was causing me to bleed and we didn't know it. then later while i was pumping my milk i started to bleed again. so we are now gonna only pump my milk for her. she's no longer gonna feed of me directly. and just in case we've also put her on formula. luckily the hospital had given us a free can of formula. so she's gonna be on both from now on. then while we were sleeping out of no where i woke up freezing. i woke up shivering and my teeth chattering. and i was completely covered in pjs and sweats and under my blankets. my parents had to come and try to warm me up cause i was soo cold. i felt like i was lying in ice. no explanantion. geez.

drs appt
aja had her first drs appt. everything is good. she apparently grew 2 inches. so now she's 19 inches long. when we were discharged she had lost 7oz from her birth weight of 6lbs 8oz. but she gained 4oz back. so thats good. they gave her a hepatitis b shot though. she was cranky the rest of the day. poor baby.

thanksgiving
well yesterday we celebrated her first thanksgiving. we had both sides of the family here. so of course my daughter was passed around like a hot potato. it was the first time just about everyone got to see her. so everyone was going ga ga over her. and she slept through most of it. but when she did wake up we let everyone see her big eyes. there was a texas holdem tourney in the garage. it lasted like 4 hours. finally it was just split up btwn john, uncle rolly and nikki. they all got too tired of playing. sheesh. but overall it was a good thanksgiving.

its weird. i still can't believe she's here and that she's mine. i mean for the last 9 months she was just an idea or something pending. and now she's here and in existance. she's still very tiny. she's so small yet she couldn't fit into the birth canal. go figure. but its been an interesting week and i' m sure it will be an interesting journey as she grows and gets older.

til we meet again



Jessica |11:57 AM| |

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Sunday, November 21, 2004
i'm here!!




Jessica |11:54 AM| |

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Sunday, October 31, 2004
its been a busy couple of weeks. as to be expected. i'm already 37 weeks, which is 9 months and 1 week. yeah we actually carry the baby for 10 months. aches and pains galore. she's seemed to have found my right siatic nerve. she's been killing my right side on and off. not only do i waddle like a damn duck but i have a limp type strut cause my right side is hurting. at one point my knee was bent but it felt like it was trying to lock cause she was leaning so much on my nerve. that was kinda weird. grr.

the drs appts have ok. had one where they ran tests for strept virus and other infections that would cause a problem during delivery. but i came out negative. so thats good. they checked to see if i had started to dialate. i had only dialated to 0.5 cm. so i still got time. my weight is funny. i had finally gained all 13lbs that i had lost. then the next week i lost a pound. then the next week i had gained 3.5 lbs. but i'm finally gaining. i've surpassed my starting weight. im interested in finding out how much i'll lose when i delivery. cause i'll be losing more than just the baby's weight when i deliver. it would be interesting if i could wear my regular clothes when i get discharged. i think i'll pack, which i still need to do, both maternity pants and my own regular pants. and see which i could wear when i leave the hospital. hah.

we had the babyshower. which was a success. we had like 140 ppl attend. had a lot of food. everyone loved the food. we had ppl tell us that they didn't really eat for a couple of days after cause they were sooo full from the shower. hah. so many gifts. it took 2.5 hours to open them all. and it wasn't like i was lingering on any of them. saw who gave it to me, opened, showed it off, then off to the next one. got a lot of cool stuff though. still got stuff to get. like the bare necessities: shampoo, soap, toothbrush, etc. but other than that we seem to be good to go.

now its just weekly drs appt to monitor my blood pressure. this late in the game, some women get high blood pressure. i'm ok so far. been really constant since the beginning. and just a matter of waiting for this kid to pop out.

there seems to be dreams started about my delivery. hah cheryl dreamt that i delivered and we couldn't get a hold of her and when she did get to the hospital the baby was walking already. wth?? my dreamt that i delivered a boy instead of a girl. and grace also dreamt i delivered a boy. and both my mom and grace didn't tell eachother til after both of them had had the dream. hmm interesting. maybe it is a boy. haha.

well til the next time i update.


Jessica |10:06 AM| |

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Thursday, October 07, 2004
well its been a busy time since the last time i blogged. drs appts and prepping the room for ms. aja. its already been told to me that i no longer have a room. from this point on its her room and i just happen to share with her. and for the most part thats true now. ive never had a girlie girl room and now i do. after a lot of work of trying to pack up my room with he help of nikki and jermiah we got a good portion of it done. then on one weekend auntie marie, uncle mon, auntie tita, auntie azon and jermiah came over. we totally packed up my room and moved everything but the bed out and began to paint the room the multitude of colors chosen. the ceiling is a mint light green. then the walls are alternating in a pastel lilac, yellow and blue. my mom put up a precious moments border along the top of the walls that her and jac bought. the next weekend uncle mon came back and painted the floor boards and the door frames. jer and uncle mon brought up the furniture and what not back into the room. we still didn't have any real baby furniture yet.

the girls from target gave me baby shower.that was cool of them. got some cute clothes and what not. started to send out invites for the family and friends baby shower party. dang we sent out a lot of invites. but we know a lot of them won't be joining us cause we sent out to family in jersey and the east coast as well as the bay area.

drs appts have been pretty standard. just check my vitals and listen to her heartbeat. which is nice. as of my vitals yesterday at the doctors, i finally gained all the weight i had lost. so ive gained the 13lbs that i had originally lost the first 5-6 months of this pregnancy. so i'm back to my starting weight when i found out i was pregnant. heh. and several of don't think that i'll be giving birth in november like planned. we think this kid is gonna make her debut in the world sometimes this month. sometime in the next few weeks. we are hoping she waits at least til after the babyshower. cause we haven't bought anything. last night my parents met up with carmen and bought the crib and mattress compliments of nana and tata. pictures


Jessica |9:29 AM| |